Outfits 5 years ago Fear Of
The song of the day is . . .
Stubborn Love by the Lumineers.
It’s better to feel pain, than nothing at all. The opposite of love’s indifference.
But is it really? I don’t know that I want to feel pain. Being away from home has been especially tough this trip to New York. It hurts and it does not feel good. I have to completely honest here and say that I simply do not know how my fellow bloggers spend so much time on the road. I have been trying, so hard, to keep my eye on the prize. . . to keep forging ahead, career driven and goal oriented. But at some point the ball must drop. At some point we all feel it, the “FOMO” (Fear of Missing Out). For some it’s the fear of missing out on a great party, for others it’s seeing photos on Instagram of people traveling the world and wishing they could do the same. For a few, it’s the photos on Facebook of picturesque family life in the simplest of forms and most loving, purest ways. That is what I long for. This is my “FOMO.”
I suppose it’s better to hurt for home than to feel nothing at all, after all. I am so incredibly blessed to do what I love to do and travel the world, but I have to be honest and say that in the end, there is still the fear. The fear that I am missing out on my home. The fear that I am missing out on my puppies getting older, my friends flourishing connections, my family growing closer and my dear husband . . .
Everyone is missing out on something, everyone has a “FOMO” of their own.
So, as the song says, “Keep your head up, my love.”
Photos by Alexandra Gibbs