As We Go Along - Damsel In Dior

Outfits 11 years ago As We Go Along

Have you ever loved something so hard that you were afraid that it might break? Afraid that you might lose it? I’m not talking about the obvious fear of losing the people we love, I’m talking about a true panic feeling that sets into a state of borderline paranoia.

I have heard two mothers over the past two weekends share their intense fear for flying after they had children. I didn’t quite understand this until I was thinking about my husband on my flight home from Denver yesterday. Rarely do I really write about my husband because I like to protect our bubble. A lot of people ask me why I travel alone so often. The answer is pretty simple: I travel for work. He has a job. It’s hard for us to take every trip together.

However, my husband is insanely supportive of the many trips I have taken solo in the past year in effort to expand my career. Not once has he told me not to go somewhere or held me back from any experience. Do I miss him when I am gone? Not really. {Don’t judge, here’s why}. It may sound cheesy, because it is, but I don’t really miss my husband when I’m gone because in some weird way he is always {always} with me. I was reflecting on how truly blessed I am to have had the incredible experiences I’ve had over the past year. The places I have been, the things I have done . . . without him, but I also thought about how he was there too. He is literally a part of me now. And that was when the paranoia set in. If it weren’t for this one person in my life, I would not be the woman I am today. A sickening homesick feeling set in and, for the first time ever, I truly understood what those mothers were talking about.

I would never have had the courage to leave home if it weren’t for that one person that made my home, a home to always come back to. And, after months and months of traveling the globe, that is the one place I truly wanted to be: home. And {funny enough} while home may be in Los Angeles, to me home is wherever I am with Grant. And tomorrow, we are off to Italy together! I hope you will follow along in our journey via the blog & Instagram.Ciao bella!